Hi everyone! Another chatty post here.
So I’m fairly open in general about the poor state my mental health is/can be. It’s not the worst it’s been but also not the best, and there are days I struggle no end. I have to take medication daily to try and keep my head above the water.
How is this anything to do with books, you say? Well. If I’m having a bad day, imagine me just scrolling without purpose through social media all day. I can’t even bring myself to pick up a book, and that includes reading on my phone. I just can’t, my brain refuses to cooperate. If I’m having a better day, I can easily finish a book in a day (or 2 if they’re short, but you get my point) so you can see how my mental health can big time affect how much reading I can get done.
If you know me, you know that I read a lot. I definitely do! But sometimes I just can’t focus on anything other than my mentally ill brain. And I know it’s not a reading slump, because reading slumps happen whenever, not only when I’m feeling bad.
Which brings me onto blogging, on here and on my bookstagram. I love blogging, I love getting my thoughts out, but if I’m having a bad day, I seriously lack in motivation to do anything – blogging is the last thing on my mind. My brain will also try telling me that no one cares about what I have to say anyway, which I try to work on not thinking. I do have a few drafts that I will post whenever if I don’t feel good enough to write something up, but this only works if I haven’t scheduled those posts for a certain day. And if I’ve been feeling up to reading, otherwise where will my reviews come from? I also feel bad when I take a while to catch up with recent posts, but sometimes I’m just too overwhelmed to do so. With bookstagram, it’s the same. It’s easy enough to take a photo of a book and add hashtags but there’s just days I can’t bring myself to do it. And that’s ok.
I hope you’ve liked this post as I know it is more open than any other I’ve posted before, but mental health is something that affects me on a daily basis and needs to be spoken about so I don’t struggle in silence. If I’m ever slow at responding to comments, or take a while to like your posts or interact in general, this is why! But I’m doing the best I can and I love reading your posts, honest!
Have a great day 🙂